i should change my music on this thing. its been a while. :D i'm tired of opening this page and hearing the same things over and over again. its gets rather annoying. maybe i'll do that after i do this.
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why do your eyes look so sad? your eyes were filled with sadness, like a part of you was missing, like a part of you was empty. it was like your eyes were trying to see into my soul. i've never seen anyone look at me like that. it was like you were calling for help, but your outer shell has too much pride to ask for it. when you looked at me with those eyes...i wanted to ask what was wrong. i'm here for you to spill everything to, i'm here when you need a shoulder to lean on, i'm here to give you a hug to make the problems go away. all you need is to ask. i'm here to help share the burden of anything unpleasant. if there's too much anger and sadness in our lives, there won't be enough room for love and joy. without enough room for love and joy, we will never live to the full potential of being happy.
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the most interesting term i've come to be using recently is the word clusterfuck.
clusterfuck is defined by urban dictionary as

1. Military term for an operation in which multiple things have gone wrong. Related to "SNAFU" (Situation Normal, All Fucked Up") and "FUBAR" (Fucked Up Beyond All Repair).
2. A combination of things going extremely wrong in a short period of time within the same general activity-caused by stupidity and/or ineptitude.
3. Chaos. Anything that is occuring in a haphazardly. The situation is not even thinking about dreaming about having a sense of order. A clustering of items (usually people) in a fucked up way.

ahaahhaha.
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speaking of, i'm attempting to not cuss. :D in chinese at least for now. trying not to cuss in english is too hard. (: i will learn how not to not cuss in chinese :D woot woot.
i think i've been doing alright so far. a couple slips here and there, but considering how it used to be every other word, i think i'm doing great :D